::Special Place::

A gentleman took me to a “special” place,

Where the view was astonishing, peaceful and serene.

Seems like a site that can only be seen in a movie, an art gallery, or even a beautiful dream.

The moon, the stars, reflecting on the calm water,

A mountain with city lights and trees being rustled by the wind.

The wind on my face, the calm sound of the crashing waves,

A place where the moon is the only light

And seeing his face,

At this special place...

::SHOUT OUTS::

Hey Blogger,

Its me again. Eh. I know I haven’t updated u for days now so here’s an update. Hmm UPDATE lol. Well I'm pretty sure you're used to me already so to start off, here's academic stuff lol.

Midterms… =(
As usual, there's never ending school works and exams… Well I guess if I’m going to UCLA, I need to get used to it. I’m just happy that I managed to turn in the paper for Physical Anthro. And I can confidently say that the presentation was ok. It’s just a matter of finding out whether I did good on the paper. Eh I’ll find out my grade eventually. Now there’s more upcoming stuff that I need to do and work on, including my Phys. Anthro. midterm tomorrow. I'm not studying and the exam is only a gigantic chunk of my grade =( BLEH! WTVR!

The KNOW is SPREADING!!!
I got a physical and HIV/AIDS/STD screening… and I am
NEGATIVE!!!

Rage:
I’ve been going to Rage every week now, it seems like. Gah! I love dancing. Well, this week, Jasmin Trias was there again. Hehe. So u know I really gotta be there. It was cool, but she only performed 3 songs. I guess it was ok. I was in front, so close to her. =)

Someone did the sweetest thing that night too. I now have Jasmin's face on my nighstand as a result =)

Oh BTW, we also saw Michelle Rodriguez the week before... hehe she is really nice and pretty... hehe... I gave her a *hug*
HI!!! DAVID!!! lol Thank's for getting me all drunk that night... my hand is still badly swollen!

Hurt:
The new song by Christina Aguilera is really good. Depressing, but its good. I love songs like that. I guess I can relate. Why? Coz I’m always hurt. HAHA! I know, EMO.

Haha and a last minute shout-out:

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY to my ATE…
I love YOU SIS!!!

and tomorrow is another boring Halloween so...

HAPPY "BORING" HALLOWEEN TO ME!!!

::TWENTY:: Part 5: Five Things To Establish @ 20

1. Get A Car.

2. Select a Major

3. Experience something life- changing (without the expense of anyone).

4. Learn how to be content and happy. Be carefree; without doubts and worries.

5. Know and feel what its like to be in love. I’m not in a rush though. At this age, I doubt it will happen…

::TWENTY:: Part 4: Future/ Education

I have an education crisis going on. I still haven’t decided which major to pursue. I am currently taking all these nonsense classes to full fill the Honor’s Curriculum and some Sociology classes here and there. But other than that, I have a grip load of courses that I have yet to take if I am planning to become a typical Filipino Registered Nurse. All I know for now is that I want to get a Bachelor’s Degree from UCLA; Major? Sociology. I’m ambivalent with Nursing though. We shall see! But I have to make a decision quick, I feel like I’m wasting time and money.

What do I want to do in life?
For now I just want to be happy. Carefree and content with what‘s going on in my life. In the future I want a job that will pay well and would make my parents proud. A job where I would anticipate and look forward to going each day. A job I don’t consider a burden. I do want to get married to the ideal guy and start a family. Be happy and safe. That’s all I want. A simple, well- off life.

::TWENTY:: Part 3: Appearance

Eh as we all know, I'm twenty and I'm getting old.

There are many things that I want to change and starting to be physically active is one thing that I want to do. I want to start working out and develop a fitter body; not for anyone to see, but for my own convenience.

I don’t want to end up obese, with every illness you can think of. I am getting older, therefore, the risk of getting sick is higher so I am planning to change my diet and work out on a daily basis.

Being fit will also improve my confidence, so I don’t have to be insecure most of the time. Getting rid of my acne through diet change wouldn’t be so bad either. So I gotta drink more water and more and more water lol.

TIME TO GET HEALTHY!!!

::TWENTY:: Part 2: Relationship

As I looked back on how I approached relationship in the past, I am not particularly happy with how I approached, coped and dealt with it. Before, I would become “boyfriends” with someone even if I know very little about him. At this age, I think I’ve had enough with mediocre type of relationship. Time to set standards for myself and the person I want to be with. It is not at all complex, its just good enough to develop something with someone thats “ideal“. These are some of the things that I want to change about myself and what I want to see in someone I can possibly be with.

1. Relationship should be slow and ongoing process of getting to know someone completely. It means: constantly finding something new about each other every day.

2. I should be able to trust. This is something that I’ve had a hard time doing in the past. I guess I’m a true pessimist, something that I shouldn't be.

3. I want someone who is brutally honest even if it means, I that I’ll get hurt in the end. I don’t understand why guys cheat. I think its better to just be honest and tell the person if he doesn’t want the relationship to continue. Heck, if you don’t want me, I’d gladly let you go.

4. I'm looking for someone who is family Oriented, romantic and self- sufficient. Someone who will be there for me.

5. I want to be completely at ease with someone and enjoy the time spent together even if it means laying down in silence.

6. I should avoid over thinking about the negatives. Its emotionally draining to think about someone. I need to be more laid back and trusting. I can only hope that the person is being honest and faithful. I don’t know, I guess I approach relationship with bias and unfair thoughts, thinking that every guy’s intention is to break my heart. But then again, certain events can only lead to learning and improving oneself. From now on, I am going to approach relationship slow and not over analyze every single aspect of it. I think that this will be the hardest to change. I guess I care too much. =(

There, I had made my list lol. Pathetic I know but oh well!!!

I love the simplicity of life. I am the type of guy who craves to be loved and I want to give love. I have never experienced those 4 letters, though I have said it in the past. I have a cousin who have 2 girlfriends at the moment: one of them pregnant. I realized, WOW! Love isn’t what I imagined it to be. No one seems to take it seriously anymore. But I’d like to hope that love still exist out there; but I doubt, eh! I always doubt.

Its hard to find true love in the gay community where most people are all about sex and superficiality. Everyone lies and as harsh as it sounds, its very easy to cheat. I guess its true what women says, "all guys are the same". But not quite. Not to make it sound like a cliché, but I’m different. Bleh! I guess that’s the reason why I’m always bound to get hurt…

Who needs love anyway? People at this age are still enjoying life; single hood. All the love I want to give and receive are the one given and coming from my family and friends; and there’s few of them. That should be enough to get me by these days, until I encounter someone to be intimately be in love with.

:::TWENTY:::

It's been a little over a month since I turned 20 and I haven't yet written anything about what I want to change in life... what I want to accomplish... the standards I want to set for myself. So since I'm bored once again, I will write about it otherwise; it will be another thing... among the many that will be left undone...

To start off, what did I do for my birthday???
Like last year, its dinner with the closest friends at an Italian Restaurant called Bocca something.. I don't even remember the name lol. It was a small event with the friends I love the most. Cz I was broke (still am by the way) everyone had to pay for their food lol. It was fun and intimate, just the way I like it. My family also threw me a small party at home for a simple get together with the relatives. I am planning to go big tho when I turn 21.. We shall see what event I'm gonna plan.

Well, I'm tired of writing lol. Definitely not what I had planned... but I'm just tired lol. So I guess I'll write more ::TWENTY:: entries some other days... I'm out!

Lazy Ass Sunday

So today is dark and gloomy outside. Im at home watching “The Bone Collector” hehe, theres nothing like watching a crime movie during a dark, cold, day. Im kinda bored. As usual I have school stuff to do but im not doing it coz im lazy… eh Procrastination! here it comes again…

Anyway how was my weekend u asked?

Well I went to my cousins wedding yesterday. It was nice but I can't help but think about my own wedding. Will I ever get married someday? And to who? Will my family be there? Am I gonna find an ideal guy to marry? All these questions just drove me insane... Eh the receptions didn’t help either. All those wedding songs just made me wanna be with someone at the moment, sitting down and enjoying the sunset outside the restaurant... Weddings… a way for a couple to commit, a depressing day for others =(

Friday night tho was different. I went to Rage with Will. At first, we thought we weren’t gonna go because it was raining like crazy, I mean pouring RAIN!!!! like seriously!!! RAIN WITH THUNDER AND LIGHTNING!!! but because we're both Rage deprived, we decided to go in spite of the monstrous weather lol… Surprisingly, it wasn't even raining in LA.

I met up with Edgar there.. It was a really good night… I’m happy.. I miss him at the moment tho =( hmm maybe one of these days, I’ll write an entry about him..

Eheh.. Before I forget, I can now call myself a “match maker”. I introduced Will to Michael and haha… they’re talking to each other now… even got a lil somethin, somethin from each other that night… if u know what I mean lol … thats dirrrrty tho lol… yuck :::vomit::: lol

hey blogger!!!

i wish i could come up with a more creative title for this entry but eh, i can't come up with one... this blog ain't gonna take long tho.. hmm im just bored and im here at school. WOrrying about the things that I have to do for next week... lets just say; i'm not happy =(

I know I should do work instead of blogging but I'm too lazy this afternoon. Grahhh!!! So much shitz to do. Anyway, I'm happy however, because I did ok on the two exams I was worrying about last monday. I got a B+ for Anthro... missed 2 questions to get an A... and and A in Geography... i only missed 1 question w/c sucks... so next week, I have two more exams; this time in Math and again in Geography... In addition, I have a big ass midterm coming up as well and 3 papers to write... hmmm i think i wrote about this in my previous entry.. eh. This blog ain't academic blog .. so imma shut up now about school.

What's Up for me this Weekend?
I am going to my cousin's wedding.. that's what's up lol. First wedding I'm going to in a long time... thinking about it just makes me hungry lol...

oh yeah! dont forget about school... i have alot of studying to do... well at least I'll try to do some work..

Who Do I think about?
Someone... duh! lol

What's My Problems?
I need a job!!! My bank account is ZERO. I have no money in my wallet. I have to pay for my cellphone bill. ANd I need to buy clothes... I need money!!

UPDATES!!!

ok bloggy here I am again... Just as I promised, I will try my hardest to write all over you. So what's up with me u ask??? hmm

SCHOOL
Right now, I am at school waiting for my Anthropology class to start. I hate that class!!! I thought I was gonna love it, but its a whole buncha BS (and by BS I don't mean Bachelor's in Science) that I dont understand. FCUK I have to do some reviewing. In terms of school this Fall 2006 semester, I am at a good start. I've done some exams already and yes, I'm getting A's and B's. I'm back to my normal geeky self, thank's to the UCLA program; picture slide is at the end of this entry... So here is the breakdown of my fall classes:

*Honor's Geography 5: World Regional Geography
*Honor's Anthropology 1: Physical
*Anthropology 2: Cultural
*Sociology 104: Social Problems
*Math 40: Elem. Algebra

I said in the past that I was gonna take more dance classes but because it was too technical for me, (ie. ballet crap), I ended up dropping it. I'm happy with my course load this semester tho. I think I'm gonna do very well (being as optimistic as possible). UCLA is not that far away (again, being as optimistic as possible). Major- wise, I'm still undecided. I still don't know what to do.. but I am finding resources that can help me. What else can I say about school, hmm.. midterms are coming up.. i have 2 exams next week on the same day, 3 papers to do this month and 1 presentation. Hmm, wow school is soo easy =)

WORK:
I'm out of work. I quit the dumb ass job at Albertson Starbucks coz it sucks... haha. Not gonna go into any details.. coz that's how much I hated my experience there. I need to work soon tho. I need moolahsss alot of them moolahss lol. I did apply to Urban Outfitters tho, but they still haven't called me back.. I wanna work there. I'm pretty sure that it will be a much better work environment than Old Navy.

HP 2000t:
I got a new laptop. Its around 1000 bucks and I love it. I am paranoid tho, I can't help but think that its gonna break down on me one of these days... =( it better not

Television Obsession:
These are the shows I'm obsessing about this season:
*America's Next Top Model
*Survivor: Cook Island
*Project Runway
*Pinoy Dream Academy
*Bituing Walang Ningning
hahah.. I love my TFC! Now that I don't work, I have more time to watch my shows... HOORAH!

Green Tea:
haha I know it came out of no where but I have to write about my favorite drink nowadays lol.. I love Lipton Iced Green teas.. its much better and healthier than sodas.. haha. And from what I heard, it has anti-oxidants that supposedly is good for your body.. so bloggie i will give u a sample when u meet me in real life...

UCLA Slide Show:
All I can say is that I had the time of my life, meeting cool people and experiencing the university life for the first time...

That's all for now, these are the only updates I can think of... so from now on, you'll hear from me daily, bloggie... oh yeah... one more thing to update, romance!!! haha we'll just have to see...