BACK =(

Once we landed, I found it hard to believe that the trip/vacation is over. I'm back home; back to the ordinary once again... I have a lot to do by the way and work... typical life in Carson. Part of me is happy tho. I did miss my family and friends, my twin bed and my home-made flip food. It was great to see Marc and Richelle (2 of my "bestest""friends lol) who picked me up at the airport. But yeah 5 days in the east coast is a dream I didn't want to wake up from, but all dreams/ good must come to an end; thats how life is. We step out of our own reality for a while but we have to get back one way or the other.

The vacation with him is now only a memory of being somewhere else; out of the ordinary. Without souvenirs; pictures, shirts, and receipts that I kept; I will never believe that I visited the east coast. Yes! Its that unreal and amazing.

As I sit here and write
As I lay at home bored at night
As I feel sick and tired of my job
I know and I will remember that New York is alive and well
Full of life, people and lights
I will always remember my time spent there with him...
Amazed...
Happy...
and Loved...

No Day But Today

I have seen plays on stage before but seeing "Rent" on broadway in New York is really an experience. Like WHoah!!! I have seen the movie but there is nuthin like seeing it live. Everything about it was just spectacular; the emotions the actors give, the voice they possess, the movements on stage and the songs are just sooo meaningful, deep, sad, and depressing... but it relates to real life: that's why I love it so much. I mean WOW! It was a flawless performance. GAH!!! I heart it...

I can now say that I am addicted to RENT! lol... I bought a $10 keychain- like thing that says RENT on it and I also "accidentally" bought a book at the same price. hehe and this past weeekend, I bought the soundtrack from the movie... hehe. Call me lame... but I just can't help but love it. So here... my favorite song from the show/movie

I'll Cover You

Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
With one thousand kisses
Be my lover - I'll cover you

Open your door I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage
To lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll be there - I'll cover you

I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are, my love,
On life - be my life

Just slip me on
I'll be your blanket
Wherever - whatever - I'll be your coat

You'll be my king
And I'll be your castle

No you'll be my queen
And I'll be your moat

I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is

So with a thousand sweet kisses
If you're cold and you're lonely
With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you
You've got one nickel only
With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you
When you're worn out and tired
With a thousand sweet kisses I'll cover you
When your heart has expired
Oh lover I'll cover you...

BOSTON, MASSACHUSETTS

We went to the east coast coz Gio has to work... so I was hotelwife for 3 days. hehe. I spent most of the time sleeping in the Hamptons.. INN that is lol... and waking up having him by my side at the middle of the night... I = Happy...

Hampton's Inn: I love waking up in the morning and breakfast is ready at the lobby.
Jet Lag: I usually wake up, eat breakfast, and sleep again till 1pm coz of the 3 hour time difference... here and there...
Steaks: haha I always have steaks when we eat out... remember: medium well
Dunkin Donuts:How can I write about Boston without Dunkin D's. If we have Starbucks here... they have double D's there... I mean .. they have it there... like everywhere... really... like EVERYWHERE!!!
Mansfield: haha
Trees everywhere: were not in LA anymore lol
Hanky Panky: again... haha... OUCH!
Hotel Maids: I feel like a King...
Destiny's Childs: The soundtrack to our car rides.
Arguments: always present
Wrentham: I went to Wrentham, Massachusetts... can u believe it!!!
Outlet: Bought 2 shoes...
UGG: My babe's store
Harvard University: I saw Elle Woods hehe
Crazy Streets and Freeways of Boston: Fucking crazzzyyyy!!!
Ticket: Gio received his first ticket for running a red light. =(
Duck Tours: hehe a car that turns into a boat instantly... toured us around Boston and the Charles River
Rain: it rained on us... and we were wet!

That's all for Boston..

I HEART NEW YORK!!!

SATURDAY
OK things didn't go too well at the beginning of our trip to New York .... hehe I'm not gonna write about our arguments tho lol. But anyway ... it was a heck of a long drive from Boston, Mass. to NY. We drove through an unfamiliar state called Connecticut??? lol .. but yeah ... it felt great tho once I read the sign Welcome to New York... I was like... OMG... slap me... coz this is a dream... a dream... come true...

We passed by where JLO used to live.. the Bronx.. not a very safe looking place i must say lol... Thank God it was daylight. But anyway, Gio wanted to check in to the hotel first... so off to another state we go.. This time, in New Jersey. Oh yeah... we fought again on our way there but we made up as usual. The hotel (Double Tree) was effin nice. Our room overlooks the city and the airport. hee hee nice. I heart hotel rooms. But anyway... we were getting ready to go to NY and suddenly... this announcement saying that we had to evacuate the building came on... so 9 flights down the stairs we go... and yeah... it wasn't anything serious as expected.. so finally were off to...New York.

STATUE OF LIBERTY
We see this iconic lady all the time; in books, pictures, movies... and seeing it in person is truly an experience I will never, ever, ever forget. We had to go through security check's before we board the boat to get to the island. The ride was great.... seeing New York and the Lady Liberty from what I think is the Hudson River was incredible... and sharing the moment with Gio was just perfect. The statue is HUGE!!! I'm soooo amazed.. I still can't believe that it was there... standing right in front of me.. WOW! I bought a statue to remember the day I saw the Statue of Liberty...

Tolls:
New York and New Jersey is soooo freakin expensive... Why??? You have to pay for toll fee's like every 5 minutes.. You have to get a ticket from the 1st toll and then pay at the second... GAH! its was like $5 if you have a ticket.. and a $1 if u do. I feel sorry for the people who drive there... hehe its better to take the subway..

Time Square:
Right after we left "Stats-su of Liberty lol, we headed straight to the city to see RENT on broadway ::YIPPIE:: ... we got there and then GAH!!! my jaws dropped... I stared in amazement... soooooo many lights, so many people, so many yellow taxi cabs... we were in Time Square... but yeah... we were running out of gas at that point... thank' God we found the theatre in time.. and decided to park the car and worry about getting some afterwards.

We went to eat and it was just amazing how much people are there... we judged, we made fun, we lust... at the people walking by. I can watch people for hours... but off the the show we go...

After the show... we saw more of Time Square and other things we always see on television and pictures that we hope to see in real life. I have so much more to say... but I'll keep my emotions to myself... I felt happy.... I was overwhelmed... I felt loved...

SUNDAY:
I had a great night. My feet hurt tho coz of the new shoes. New York again for this day...

Ground Zero: It was an emotional moment...
Brooklyn Bridge: I hope I got a good photo of it lol...
Union Square: Forever 21 has clothing for dudes???
Subway: Love it!!! we got lost tho... but its cooo.
Kebobs: my new york addiction...
Fashion District: WOW!!! i wish i had more money
Central Park: Big park with trees and stuff lol and it smells like horse dookies
GIO: I love him!
Cabs: everywhere and pretty expensive
Starbucks: we heart iced caramel mach.
Hershey's Candy Factory: 3 buckets of candies= my hand fuckin hurts
Navy Guys: everywhere
Trump Tower: I'm an apprentice... lol
Giant X'mas Tree: we saw where they usually have it
Flea Market: I hope that's how u spell it.. so many cheap souvenirs
Me and Gio: in the place of my dreams... Priceless....

Second day in New York was just was great and painful to my feet as the first. To this day... we still couldn't figure out where Carrie Bradshaw lives and what happened to Andre? I had fun buying 5,000 I heart New York shirts and souvenirs and visiting 5 million shops. I heart holding Gio's hand as we walked the sidewalks of New York and seeing everything together. It's a time that I will always remember... I HEART NEW YORK!

My 5 Day Get Away

Ok I never in my life have I thought of visiting the east coast at 19. But because of Giovanni "Babe" Portillo, I did lol.

Original Plan:
He's suppose to go on a business trip to help open an UGG store in Boston. We both initially thought that he was going by himself but he had a crazy idea... He wanted me to come along!!! He paid for everything... he's crazy huh? but I'm thankful... I THANK YOU GIO!

EXCUSE:
We all know that the parentals would never ever....and I mean NEVER!!! allow me to go some place far away... so as usual... I came up with a lie...haha... an educational lie that is... UCLA 5 day orientation/ educational enrichment program lol. LIE= BOUGHT!

RIDE:
I thank Marc for making my trip possible. Without him... I would never get to the airport... No Marc= no trip.

Airports:
LAX: long wait... I was very sleepy since Marc dropped me off at 3:00 in the morning coz he had to go to work. My flight was around 9.

Phoenix: for a stop over... that airport is hecka ugly lol...

Boston: the east coast...Finally

The plane ride was sickening. I've never felt sick in my life. I had a headache, I was hungry, and I was uncomfortable... Gah! but I made it to Boston.

Five States:
I have never thought of visiting/seeing/stepping foot in 5 states... in a week!!! New York, Massachusetts, New Jersey, Connecticut, and Arizona. But I did. eh!

Celebrities:
Hahaha... we saw sooo many celebs in the east coast lol. Here they are:

Elle Woods- Harvard
Gracie Lou- New Jersey
Prince- New York
Chelsea Clinton- New York; working part-time at the Liberty Island security
Jennifer Lopez- Hamptons Inn: Boston and Double Tree: New Jersey... our own personal maid
Andre and Tim Gunn: Parsons NY and Red Lobsters
Carrie Bradshaw: New York
Frenchie Davis: Rent

Summary of the Trip:
May 24, 2005 (Wednesday) Airport/ Plane Rides Day
May 25, 2005 (Thursday) The Outlet
May 26, 2005 (Friday) Duck Tour/ Mall/ Outlet
May 27, 2005 (Saturday) NY, NJ, Statue of Liberty, Rent, Time Square
May 28, 2005 (Sunday) Union Square, Ground Zero, Central Park, Time Square, Back to Boston May 29, 2005 (Monday) BOO!!!

Highlight of the trip: Arguing, getting lost, being amazed... being with him...

BAD DAY!

Ever had one of those days where it started so wrong and bad... you wonder... how in the world can this day be any better?

Well I'm having one of those days. I'm here in Massachusetts at a hotel lobby pouring my frustrations out... Again... writing calms me down... Othewise, I AM GOING TO LOSE IT!!!

Anyway.. what can I write about. I gotta take my mind off of things...........................................

GAH! whatever... I dont know what to write about! ... its gloomy and foggy outside... my type of weather. I think I'm just gonna go outside and enjoy it..

Psychiatric Nursing

So after sitting in class for two hours listening to a Psychiatric Nurse speak, I decided that I want to look into becoming one. Gah! I'm taking this Intro. to Health Career class and out of all the careers presented it is narrowed down to 2.

First i thought of being in the Pediatrics but after hearing what a psychiatric nurse do and what they have to deal/ work with... "I finally found it... the career that would make me very happy for the rest of my life" lol. Maybe not! But I'm still gonna look into it and see if its right for me. I just really like the fact that you get to encounter different types of people and hear their stories about the things they hear and things they see. I don't know. I'm fascinated. I wanna help those people who are unable to cope with depression and rough life challenges. Its a cool area of the health field as well because I don't have to deal with the physical yucks such as blood, surgery, pains, and blood and even more bloods and YUCKS!!! and OUCH!!! and Gah's... har har...

SUBWAY: EAT FRESH
I had subway after the nursing class and I'm stuck here at the library waiting for my 7:00 class to start. I had the Cheese steak. YUM!!!! har har. I'm fucking full and I'm fat. But yeah GIO said that he has a good news and a bad news to tell me. Wonder what it is??? So if ur reading this... u know I'm anxious to find out.

Anyway.. why do people view me as a whore/a player??? haha a sudden change of topic I know! But I just have to write about my past so I can start new. and YES Gio this is for YOU!

Fine I've been with some people before but this was when I was just exploring being gay. I messed around with people to see what it feels like and possibly find someone to be with. Out of all the guys that I've been with, I have never done any intercourse other than making out and the "oral" stuff. I once was a virgin but this was taken by someone who I care about. The reason why I have held on to my virginity is because I really want to give it to someone special so that it will mean something more than just a one time thing or because I was really feeling horny. For people who I don't even know saying that I've been around... is just a stupid thing to say because 1st, they don't know who I am; and 2nd they didn't hear it from me.

...BREAK...

OK! I'm taking a break from studying. Studying sucks! I've expressed this throughout this blog and YES! I'm gonna say it again. I went online today to see what I got in the exam we took last week... I don't even want to say what I got. Let's just say that its a big downfall from the A that I received last time. =( >>> I guess I'm not going to UCLA... but you never know. Gah!

Life is "Gah"-ish for me lately. I have so many things to do but I just don't find/have time to do it. I'm either working or laying around at home doing nuthin. Everything that needs to be done is mostly school related. I can't wait until summer! So I can start fresh with new courses and develop a much better study techniques.

hehe I ate what is called DELUX CHILI FRIES at Del Taco today (fucking random I know!) but I just have to write how good it is lol...

WORK: So this thing UNION is asking me for $180 before May 15 or else I will be terminated from Albertson's. I don't know whether I want to pay or not. That's too much money for a part- time worker like me. In addition, they will deduct $75 from my paycheck every month. Meaning... I will earn nuthin. =( And my cellphone bill aint helpin either. My cell got disconnected for the second time but luckily, I did manage to pay it =)

Jury Duty: I got summoned for jury duty... Fun huh? I just hope that if I get called for service... it has to be one of them interesting cases ... you know... murder or some shitz like that lol... I dont know lol... The Supreme crap is the last thing I want to know about.

...what else can i write about... hehe relationship??? I'm with Joe and I'm happy. I'll write about my relationship with him next time... in a separate blog. Heheh. Special man means special and separate blog right? ... I think he agrees lol.

FUCK-ne: I getting more and more acne... what am I going to do???
1. Drink more water.
2. No more junks.
3. Healthy food.
4. Water.
5. No more stressing about school.

Dance: I fucking hate my jazz class. I am dancing along with the good people and I am behind. I was absent one day when they added new routines, now I don't know what to do. FUCK! whatever tho. I might not perform coz Adrian won't.

...EXAM tomorrow...
So I have an exam for Sociology tomorrow and the topic is relationship. I just have to write a little bit about the important thing that I read. This relates to real life so its worth writing about...

(Typing like Carrie Bradshaw)
We all talk about the topic of love. We all hope to be in love; to love and be loved. As said by my professor, relationship is only good at the beginning. The high in a relationship is not maintained. It is temporary and quick. Where does it go?

We hurt when love don't last, but why do we pursue falling in love? Why do we open our hearts again if we know how painful it is?

To be in love is to take risks. People like us hope that the benefits of being in love will outweigh those risks of being hurt.

WOW! I wrote a long entry... That's it for now...

APRIL 20, 2005

It was around 2 in the morning when he text me.

He said he was on his way to see me.

I didn't believe it.

This guy's insane if he's serious about seeing me.

He is, as a matter of fact on his way to see me.

Got up... Cleaned my room and waited....

Finally, he's outside my door waiting.

... this is the day Giovanni Portillo became my BOYFRIEND...