::TWENTY:: Part 2: Relationship
As I looked back on how I approached relationship in the past, I am not particularly happy with how I approached, coped and dealt with it. Before, I would become “boyfriends” with someone even if I know very little about him. At this age, I think I’ve had enough with mediocre type of relationship. Time to set standards for myself and the person I want to be with. It is not at all complex, its just good enough to develop something with someone thats “ideal“. These are some of the things that I want to change about myself and what I want to see in someone I can possibly be with.
1. Relationship should be slow and ongoing process of getting to know someone completely. It means: constantly finding something new about each other every day.
2. I should be able to trust. This is something that I’ve had a hard time doing in the past. I guess I’m a true pessimist, something that I shouldn't be.
3. I want someone who is brutally honest even if it means, I that I’ll get hurt in the end. I don’t understand why guys cheat. I think its better to just be honest and tell the person if he doesn’t want the relationship to continue. Heck, if you don’t want me, I’d gladly let you go.
4. I'm looking for someone who is family Oriented, romantic and self- sufficient. Someone who will be there for me.
5. I want to be completely at ease with someone and enjoy the time spent together even if it means laying down in silence.
6. I should avoid over thinking about the negatives. Its emotionally draining to think about someone. I need to be more laid back and trusting. I can only hope that the person is being honest and faithful. I don’t know, I guess I approach relationship with bias and unfair thoughts, thinking that every guy’s intention is to break my heart. But then again, certain events can only lead to learning and improving oneself. From now on, I am going to approach relationship slow and not over analyze every single aspect of it. I think that this will be the hardest to change. I guess I care too much. =(
There, I had made my list lol. Pathetic I know but oh well!!!
I love the simplicity of life. I am the type of guy who craves to be loved and I want to give love. I have never experienced those 4 letters, though I have said it in the past. I have a cousin who have 2 girlfriends at the moment: one of them pregnant. I realized, WOW! Love isn’t what I imagined it to be. No one seems to take it seriously anymore. But I’d like to hope that love still exist out there; but I doubt, eh! I always doubt.
Its hard to find true love in the gay community where most people are all about sex and superficiality. Everyone lies and as harsh as it sounds, its very easy to cheat. I guess its true what women says, "all guys are the same". But not quite. Not to make it sound like a cliché, but I’m different. Bleh! I guess that’s the reason why I’m always bound to get hurt…
Who needs love anyway? People at this age are still enjoying life; single hood. All the love I want to give and receive are the one given and coming from my family and friends; and there’s few of them. That should be enough to get me by these days, until I encounter someone to be intimately be in love with.
1. Relationship should be slow and ongoing process of getting to know someone completely. It means: constantly finding something new about each other every day.
2. I should be able to trust. This is something that I’ve had a hard time doing in the past. I guess I’m a true pessimist, something that I shouldn't be.
3. I want someone who is brutally honest even if it means, I that I’ll get hurt in the end. I don’t understand why guys cheat. I think its better to just be honest and tell the person if he doesn’t want the relationship to continue. Heck, if you don’t want me, I’d gladly let you go.
4. I'm looking for someone who is family Oriented, romantic and self- sufficient. Someone who will be there for me.
5. I want to be completely at ease with someone and enjoy the time spent together even if it means laying down in silence.
6. I should avoid over thinking about the negatives. Its emotionally draining to think about someone. I need to be more laid back and trusting. I can only hope that the person is being honest and faithful. I don’t know, I guess I approach relationship with bias and unfair thoughts, thinking that every guy’s intention is to break my heart. But then again, certain events can only lead to learning and improving oneself. From now on, I am going to approach relationship slow and not over analyze every single aspect of it. I think that this will be the hardest to change. I guess I care too much. =(
There, I had made my list lol. Pathetic I know but oh well!!!
I love the simplicity of life. I am the type of guy who craves to be loved and I want to give love. I have never experienced those 4 letters, though I have said it in the past. I have a cousin who have 2 girlfriends at the moment: one of them pregnant. I realized, WOW! Love isn’t what I imagined it to be. No one seems to take it seriously anymore. But I’d like to hope that love still exist out there; but I doubt, eh! I always doubt.
Its hard to find true love in the gay community where most people are all about sex and superficiality. Everyone lies and as harsh as it sounds, its very easy to cheat. I guess its true what women says, "all guys are the same". But not quite. Not to make it sound like a cliché, but I’m different. Bleh! I guess that’s the reason why I’m always bound to get hurt…
Who needs love anyway? People at this age are still enjoying life; single hood. All the love I want to give and receive are the one given and coming from my family and friends; and there’s few of them. That should be enough to get me by these days, until I encounter someone to be intimately be in love with.
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